Manusia..

Entahlah, kadang manusia hanya tahu mengadili tanpa memberi ruang memahami. Saya disuruh hadir untuk memperkenalkan diri Jumaat lalu pada jabatan. Ketika itu Fatih dimaksudkan ke wad kerana jangkitan peparu. Saya sudah memaklumkan pada prof berkenaan, cuma mungkin admin staf tak mengetahui.

Siapa tahu saya masih bermatian menyelamatkan nyawa manusia lain semasa oncall sedang anak sendiri di wad pada hujung minggu lepas? Sabtu dan Ahad oncall.

Ya, rehat sehari dan semalam saya oncall kembali.

I haven't rest. Cuti sehari itu anak masih di wad. Dan hanya Allah yang tahu betapa penatnya oncall malam tadi. Semua pesakit tak stabil. Neutropenic sepsis yang akhirnya mati. Dengue with UGIB, severe DKA with bicarb 2.3, ITP with platelet 1 and the list goes on.

And i received call from admin office this morning, with a dissatisfying voice as i haven't did my staff card and others.

In this life, no one...no one will understand, know and appreciate you except Allah.. People can only judge,,can only see you from one point of view..

But the one that only can see you as a whole is Allah.. I am tired to be judged..

I just don't bother about you as only Allah will know everything about me..

For my zauj, thank you for all the support,, i learned last night one important thing as well, don't rely on anyone.. But you're one of the great blessing that Allah gave me..

I met you by the mercy of Allah.. Thank you for everything.. Thank you for accepting all my weakness..